Change The Way You See Life, Take My Challenge Hobart. My name is Matthew Tonks, and I live in Hobart, Tasmania. In July of 2017 I was made redundant from my place of work because the business had slowly begun to close down ever since the owner passed away in 2015. Initially I thought it […]
Don’t take my words for granted, I’ve been known to lie from time to time, the wickedness of pulsating penance courses through all I am, depleting life, sucking marrow, spreading disease, patronising words of wisdom, from someone far more fucked than you, dare to stand against me, when in the end you’ll come to realise, […]
Sinner, base my hate on you, it feeds me, makes this suffering worth something, don’t presume to judge me, I am not without my own darkness, I am locked within this lie, created by the one before me, the one who cursed me with this totem of hate, lick the pain, for soon, you will […]
See me, see all of me, don’t look away, don’t allow your fear to control your emotions, even though fear is the only emotion you feel, see me, see all I am, allow your eyes to witness my naked form, in all its beauty, see me, see everything that is, take my hand and journey […]
The world looks different through its reflection, twisted and perverted, dark and subversive, how bitter it is to swallow, we breathe night and day, we struggle to survive, we yearn just to live, only to die in the end, on a journey towards whatever we let ourselves believe, because we can’t accept, that there’s nothing […]
Minuscule responses from an expensive ad, money poorly spent, desperation is now all I have, they can sell it for you if you have, a face that they all know, but when your nothing, a nobody, you’ve got to sell your soul, sell it fast, sell it cheap, become a massive slut, for if you […]
Gaze beyond and see the bitterness of sin, how it has misshaped all that I am, twisted my light into darkness, can you see? Behind my eyes it hides, waiting in the tears I shed, wishing for a tomorrow that can never come, for my yesterday is battered and torn, and I am something else, existing […]
They lie, those wicked words of testament, winding their way through, twisting their way around, tearing their way in, to complete the sin, that was made when you were birthed, so softly was your start, how bitter was your end, come bathe in this, sit down and sing, for there is nothing here for you, […]
Moments lost in eyes of lies, the mildness of their cares, shines from within their withered formes, sickness of life, desires whispered from dreams of the sin, my grotesque monster, that hides inside, waiting to devour me, from the inside out, for you see, I do not fear the beast that is irrevocably my own […]
Pasted from pieces of my dismembered mind, are pictures of all the things I left behind, my sanity lost in this nightmare, of what was, what is, what may, lights flicking, my head-splitting, a beast emerging from within, my sin given flesh, my sin given form, my light adrift, my life torn.
Sticky fingers, wrapped in twine, tightly twisting it’s wicked way around all that I am, without and within, is this my curse, my sins final hand, the game, for I am, I am not, did I dig this hole? Or was it dug for me? it matters not anyway, for the soil falls upon me, […]
In the darkness of my mind, I fly, away from all I am, from this world that has imprisoned me, within this husk, you ask the questions, I shudder, I whimper, I submit, I give in, let the sin wash me under, let me, be then nothing, I’ve always been.