Daily Grind – Fear In Fear Reborn!

Fear In Fear Magazine is reborn, my past is being used against me, twisted and turned into something it’s not by someone I once called friend. Gareth, your demented journey will soon be at an end, by bringing Matthew into this world, by filling his shoes with flesh and bone you have only angered the…

Daily Grind – Gareth

Why? Its the only real question I have left to ask. Gareth, why have you done this to me? Why have you tried to twist everything I am into this pale, unrecognizable face? What did I do to you that made you so bitter? We were friends, comrades in arms, why did you create this…

Daily Grind – HELP ME!

I need to know I’m not the only one who hears it, I need to know I’m not losing my mind. Images in my head, blood over everything, their dead eyes, looking at me, I can’t tell if it’s just my imagination or if it’s real, memories lost, now regained. I need someone to hear me,…

Daily Grind – Unwell

I’ve woken up badly today, it seems my night, went longer than I anticipated it would. It was sometime around 7:00am that I finally closed my eyes to rest. So much of the night is a blur, but what I do remember, what I can recall, make no sense. I tried calling Clare today, after…

Daily Grind – Do You Want To See?

How do I start this post when all my thoughts are still not sure what they saw, what they heard. When my brain is telling me 1 thing and seconds later something else, I feel like everything I am is being pulled this way, and that way, as I constantly struggle against urges, visions of…

Daily Grind – Show Me A Story

I don’t want to start off another Daily Grind with another story of something unusual happening, but, its what seems to be the current trend at the moment. Little sleep, and nightmares, that seem to be coming more from out there, than from inside my head. I tried not to sleep last night, I truly…

Daily Grind – Another Visit From My Shadow Friend

Don’t judge me, don’t criticize my choices, what I do, I do because I have to, not because I want to. Right now, at this moment I should be aboard my flight, heading towards my past, heading to Sydney, but instead I’m still here, trying to deal with everything that happened last night, or this…

Daily Grind – Nightmare Central

Tomorrow morning I fly across the strait, across a quarter of this great land, and face my past, face my mistakes, my greatest mistakes, head on. To say that I’m not worried would be lying, I’m petrified, stressed, and on top of that, this house is giving me bad vibes. Last night, when I finally…

Daily Grind – Somethings Are What They Are

Time and time again, I find myself asking the question, why? Valid? Of course it is, we ask ourselves why all the time, about every move we make, about every decision, citing it to ourselves at a later date, why the choice had to be made, why we, did what we did. When Fear In…

Daily Grind – The Turmoils Of Packing

I’m nervously anticipating the weekend, it’s been almost 8 years since Clare left with the girls, 8 years of being lost in my own self pity, my own nightmare. I haven’t called, I can’t, if I lose my nerve before I’m even there I’ll never go, so I have to go in blind, and hope it all works…