my serpentine self,
twisting around my spin,
relenting,
unforgiving,
I am held in a moment,
tightly wound like a spring about to snap,
wickedly winding around and around,
one as one,
defiance not found,
my stomach,
my soul,
pushed down,
not sound,
peace not found…
She shoved,
Solved and shovelled,
A wicked smile,
Turned the sky bright,
I told the sun to back away,
Lamented stories,
Painful but true,
From lips to ears it’s journey was sung,
Places changed,
Faces gone,
Names were different,
But the deeds were all the same,
Failed kisses,
Bloody delight,
Blades a merry,
We are,
I am,
Why fight…
spiralling outward,
with no direction,
looking for ejection,
not affection,
my body the betrayer,
confidence slayer,
I want some release,
I want some peace,
freedom from these waves,
repetitive self-insignificance,
my binaural burning,
poleaxed by my innards,
twisted inside me,
never being free…
unknown,
the deviations of the selfless clone,
inside he waits,
to venture out,
a mask set in the stone of some,
a window,
my self in denial of self,
winter comes and summer goes,
my serpent spent,
the miracle no more,
I stammer,
I stutter,
I fall back down,
Jerusalem flavours come to mind,
a birth of a forsaken child,
the son,
the visage,
the never been,
I cast you out,
I feed you no more,
out haggard beast,
I accept you no more!
closing in,
no escape,
contractions washing over me,
like a pool of sweat,
a sea to breathe,
my self lost,
in this fantasy,
I want release,
for it to go,
but it’s not ready,
it won’t let go,
a rock back and forth,
foetal if i could,
begging for the ending,
begging for release!
painful insipid worm,
that holds me in its thrall,
burning me from inside,
not want to get out,
a yearning unimaginable,
its impossibility to be,
wanton nestling creates,
packing in my spleen,
wishful thinking,
a dare to dream,
sunset too far away,
I wait to want,
but need to see,
the devil inside me…
a body in turmoil,
pulsating resorts,
a battle within,
fighting against nature,
as softness ain’t one,
a hardness inside,
as the waste won’t come out,
a furnace of fury,
sweat drenched as i fight,
motions not my own,
I want to give in,
but I struggle against my body,
for I cannot lose control,
I choose my own path,
wanting it to pass,
a battle within,
pulsating resorts,
a body in turmoil…
stuck,
not pushing,
don’t push,
waste not wasting away,
hoping for the relief that never comes,
so far away,
I can’t take it,
waves up itself,
a perpetual motion,
that won’t move,
a wasted fortress,
holding on,
inside with no release,
the pressing sides of the body’s kingdom,
waste not wasting away,
don’t push,
not pushing,
stuck…
water into wine,
like in the proverbs,
it’s something unkind,
like lying in the movies,
you try to show the way,
but haven’t got the words,
to paint the sky with colours,
set the mother right,
with a catastrophic warning,
the darkness of insanity,
bleeds into the daylight,
of a world gone insane,
beneath the fated birthright,
of a line given to chance,
flippant in its display,
a life gone away…
may the night come upon us,
without warning or care,
the ending came upon us,
at first there was no consciousness,
now there is only panic,
the streets are bare,
humanity gone astray,
a child,
no parents,
no womb,
born of a moment,
given flight,
given dare,
a dying sun,
a dying earth,
no saving graces,
no last-minute save,
a wind that is burning,
a world no longer…
we cannot see,
the light that is not me,
wash the windows,
press all the buttons,
release the hordes,
let them run the world down,
a cavity of gravy,
lost in the stars,
designed to suffer,
failure without hope,
the days without,
the nights with,
symptoms of the disease,
the beginning of the decay…
designed to fail,
the system falls,
an ending stale,
mystical and all,
no vaunted endings,
not dire rights,
peaceful forgiveness,
sickness in waves,
we try to survive,
yet cannot see,
the possibilities insolvent,
sinister reflections given life,
my winter self comes out to play,
sheltered in the harrow,
of a world that never ends…
prey until the dawn,
for your nightmares come for you tonight,
the devil has given them shape,
now they’re free to taunt you,
while they try to take your life,
games won’t seem the same,
as the golden goose has cooked itself,
the farmer’s daughter is violent,
she cut’s you in two,
a cry of madness,
along the never-ending road,
into the bowels of something familiar,
the ending,
never seen…
breathing harder, heart beating faster,
blacked out like a speed skater,
the pyro explodes,
the music plays,
a world on fire,
thrusts the words forward,
drag the lights down,
as we call its name,
scream for the end,
forgiveness long lost,
to this kingdom built on the bodies of the dead,
breathing harder, heart beating faster,
calling the devil I’ll by its name,
light the world on fire,
sing the song for the end,
haggard is my path,
listen to its words,
rise up and take it,
let the dead know who their king truly is,
beating faster, breathing harder,
blacked out,
stressed out,
crying my name,
all in vain!
hello,
do you see me here?
calling your name,
screaming in fear,
you might have forgot my name,
but my face was your favourite thing to punch,
let me relieve you of your lies,
I’ll pry away your eyes,
careless words that never came out right,
a faster way to love you,
through blood drenched eyes,
it’s always the same,
the fairy tale never ends,
hello,
it’s time for you to go…
suck up the silence,
bleed in the sand,
deformation is the jury,
don’t listen to the cries,
just hope for tomorrow!
fleeting, fighting,
say goodnight to the night, and say hello to the sunlight!
lines in the dirt,
sinners in my way,
the darkness no longer,
my friends are all dead,
but I still hope for tomorrow!
fleeting, fighting,
say goodnight to the night, and say hello to the sunlight!!
meat puppets on strings,
engines roaring to life,
the fight is upon us,
we can’t let them win,
we can’t let them take tomorrow!
fleeting, fighting,
say goodnight to the night, and say hello to the sunlight!!
fighting, fleeting,
prey for the night,
for here comes the sunlight!
prey for the night,
fight for your life!
cast your eye to the horizon,
for there is the story of a wanted man,
he ran from the devil and his whores,
escaped through hells doors,
birding the ferris wheel of life again,
he wanted to right his wrongs,
to save his soul,
to clear his name,
but the man never saw,
for the devil knew his fate,
and the sombre man had no chance,
his card already stamped,
a tomorrow not his,
an escape bit real,
for hell has no doors,
he changed punishments,
but never where he was!
wasted tears on the floor,
as the world shows she doesn’t feel,
brainless in their deception,
they didn’t see her scars,
she cut herself open,
a million times or more,
a broken record,
a flat battery attack,
the world didn’t see her scars,
self-inflicted,
as she tried to free herself from the flesh suit,
in her fight to get back home,
wasted years in the cycle,
feelings unfelt,
a cry going unanswered,
blind eyes their reward…
the call without a name,
as the tide draws in,
we both don’t see straight,
maybe the towns people are right,
a wasted space,
a pawn living in a knight’s face,
do i wanna stay,
when everyone wants you to go away,
the dark side comes calling,
dancing down the street,
the kids are playing their music,
dragging bodies as they sweep,
lumps in our throats,
as we realise,
the night time is almost gone…
feathered self of demonic bird,
the flightless instrument,
sharp and steel,
binary codes written on walls,
equations without answers,
alive is the lovers,
only by their eyes,
sea sand swallows,
the end of the all,
painted roses green,
while the end is a crime scene wiped clean…
