Tag: nightmares

Show them simple pleasure (PLEASURES!), give them simple pain(PAIN!) sarcastic infidelity wrapped in twisted lies that are tethered to unwarranted glances of lustful imaginations, feed them simple words (WORDS), tell them simple lies (LIES), tell them through unending nightmares that are painfully sown to their flesh like badges of honour, follow their simple rules (RULES), to show them a simple end (END), for tomorrow’s problems are brought forward into today like a DeLorean out of time looking for a way to save today in its yesterday (SAVE OUR SOULS, ONE TWO THREE! SAVE OUR SOULS, ONE TWO THREE! SAVE OUR!)

Saint Maria (STAND WITH ME) Saint Maria stand with me above then all, Saint Maria (GUIDE MY HAND), Saint Maria guide my hand because its time to start WAR! (WAR!) WAR (WAR!) guide my attack as I take the enemy down, guide my attack as I take the bodies to the ground, guide my fists as I throw them like stones, guide my strikes as they kill young and old, WAR (WAR) it’s what the whole word called for WAR (WAR) feel the pain as I roar WAR (WAR) justifiable destruction, lava, earthquakes and tsunamis, Mother Earths fighting back, trying hard to stop me, but this is war and I’m better, but this is war and I’m stronger, FUCK this is war and I’m the destroyer! WAR! (WAR) feel my fire! WAR! (WAR) watch the whole world implode! (WATCH EVERYONE YOU LOVE DIE! DIE! DIE! WAR!) WAR!

Murderer (MURDERER!) Murderer (MURDERER!) succulent seductive sorceress, using your words like they are buttons, pushing every single one of mine with every breath, Murderer (MURDERER!) Murderer (MURDERER!) pushing my faith downwards with hands over my face suffocating me, my feelings strings on your twisted guitar, that your fingers playing so precisely making a song from each of my cries, Murderer (MURDERER!) Murderer (MURDERER!) you’re killing me, Murderer (MURDERER!) Murderer (MURDERER!) you’re tearing me, Murderer (MURDERER!) Murderer (MURDERER!) you’re killing me, Murderer (MURDERER!) Murderer (MURDERER!) you’re killing me! You’re killing me! (I’M KILLING ME!)

Devious little things grow in my mind, every time we get ourselves into the darkness we disintegrate a part of ourselves, rejoice with this as we know it is  not the darkness it is the 18th mark of its word that leaves our corrupted soul, like a candle wavering in the breeze night as if winds of the gods were blowing it two and through, sample the fires (BURN! BURN!), taste the burning embers (BURN! BURN!), feel pain (BURN! BURN!) as it washes over you like rugged waves on the shoreline (BURN! BURN! BURN IT TO THE GROUND! FEEL YOUR FLESH BURN! BURN! BURN! FEEL YOUR FLESH BURN! BURN! BURN! LETS BURN IT TO THE GROUND!)

Possibilities lost within a madness of insanity built up by doctors twisted inside underneath their masks, realities given the shun of their righteousness as their lies are taken to be truths, cathartic murders used to cleanse the soiled soul only dirties the waters of doubtfulness more than they were before, sadistic measures taken with pride, bastards, arseholes, mother fucking cunts all, systematically undercutting everything and all, piling bodies upon bodies as they try to build the tallest pile of all, jealousy their weakness, and that’s their downfall, they’re pathetic world will crumble, once I twist them all toward each other…

I sit here stewing in my own juices, as the sweat pours from within and runs down my face, the saltiness cascades over my tongue like treats of insanity, hallucinations trick me with their dastardly lies, my mind, my imagination, my madness humiliates my pride, my eyes fog over, my breathing slows down, my seat slowly swallows me, my imagination my bitter crown, confused, drowned, drained of all I am, then a breeze of coolness rushes over me like a wave and for a moment, a precious moment, I am free, I am me, a reprieve for my sins, then it goes as it came, and the heat picks up once again, so does the sweat, that flows down my forehead once more…

I still taste my mothers blood on my lips, it’s warmth salty sharpness sends my glands into spasms, but truth be told it’s been many a year or more since I clawed my way from her womb like a desperate diver trying to make his way from the depths of the ocean with the only air above (THERE WAS NO DESPERATION, I TORE MY WAY OUT BECAUSE I HAD GROWN TIRED OF HER), the doctors were sickened by my entrance, my father refused my existence and thrust me away from his grace (THE PATHETIC INSECT FELT MY TOUCH SOON AFTER), but the world came to feel me, the word felt every breath I took, every heartfelt moment I gave, every life I sucked into my web of suffering, I see it now, the realisation in your eyes, the paleness of your skin, you know who I am now, you know my name and you know my face, because it stares back at you every day in the mirror, it reflects of every puddle of redness that you stand over in finality, I am the sickness, I am the disease, I am you, and you, are me!

Welcome back, I’m glad came, I’m glad you returned to the place, you once called home, there’s no looking back, there’s no regrets to deep, this broken household, is a sin too deep, so open up, and give us birth, for we are the many, we are the earth, wicked winds, twisted times, the sickness is spreading, on comes the end time, shadowed (SHADOWED!) faces, deceitful (DECEITFUL!) words, betrayal (BETRAYAL!) by the lover, cursed (CURSED!) by your foes, tomorrow, forever, (UNTIL ALL THE STARS DIE!) until all the stars die, the deceiver, (THE MASTER!) the one with no name, let them come, let them be, let them see what the others should have known, let them see me, (SEE US!), for now you (WE!WE!WE!WE!WE!) are home!

Infection beneath the skin, eating away at me, turning my twisting insides, in ways I couldn’t see, the doctors gave no reprise, the disease no remorse, my life slipping away from me, as the festering sickness ran its course, broken and alone, my fight to live disappeared, the world showed me its darkness, and that’s when it appeared, it’s promise was precise, its payment simple and within my grasp, all it asked was for one favour, all it asked was for me to compete one task, scoff at me for being weak, judge me for being the fool, but understand as I take your life, that this blade and my hand, are both its tool.

Deviations placed upon the path once travelled now only act as bitter reminders of catastrophic moments that you would soon forget, variations of images flash before your eyes showing you millions (UPON MILLIONS) of versions of who you could’ve (LIES COVERED IN LIES, YOU COULDN’T BE ANYTHING MORE THAN WHAT YOU ALREADY ARE!) been if you dedicated yourself more, violations of your own self by others scar your back and face beneath the flesh and across it, dissatisfaction turns into hate as those that hold ransom over your life slowly fall beneath your bloody footprint as you build your anger into a weapon guided by the voice of Christ, ignorance of the facts even when shown (REFUSE THEIR REALITY!), disgusted by what you perceive to be false truths (DON’T BELIEVE THEIR LIES!), unjustified hate (HATE NEEDS NO JUSTIFICATION!), destruction, retaliation, ascension, a sword by only one name, a sword named death!

Passive voices rage inside my twisted head, screaming back and forth commands, instruction and plans, for something disturbingly chaotic is brewing, something dark and violent, colours, red, painting the sky before our eyes, wickedness, self-sacrificing superficial ARSEholes full of lies twisted in their deluded minds, deceit, rejoice, cleanse the wickedness, lay down with the sick, diffuse the light of belief, and bury the faith deep, SAINTify the heretic, reward them for the suffering they bring, hold their words as BIBLEfication, crucify the undeserving, destroy the spirit of this travesty called humanity and, move onto whatever intelligent life form walks in their place next!

One cry, one tear, falling, (FALLING!) down ward, harmful words, used to dig, deeply in, your pathetic skin, playful boy, with broken toys, can’t see the mess, they explode, one tear, from my eye, falling down, from the sky, blessed one, whoever you are, hear my call, feel my pain, deepening, falling backwards, a world of pain, the world contracting, blessed one, who brings my pain, who stands above me, who looks the same, mirrored image (MIRRORED ME!), this pain corrupted (TWISTING INSIDE!), this pain corrupted (TWISTING INSIDE!) this pain corrupted, this pain is me (ME!!)

Questions winging hopelessly (YTPME) across this pathetically uninteresting battlefield called life or something like that, (EFIL) supplemented facts given as truth (SEIL) false denials covered up by the powerful (SNOIGILER) self righteous infancy tucked away beneath adulthood (DLIHC) your readiness to be, was never meant to BE! Fractured disguises mirrored (SisscorrocssiS) in the eyes of those that profess your love (EVOL) you care little, you care not, sophisticated lies hidden in plain sight, show the world (EM WOHS) unburden yourself of these burdens you bear, and let the true suffering begin (NIGEB S’TEL ,WON)

Forget that the night is real, for all you need to know is that this darkness is fulfilling its wanting need, its purpose, suffocating each fighting breath with its hold so tight, a symphony of stars, playing the songs I like, a wetness thick and cold, my body, my me, slipping through the mirror of insipidness into a word that failed to be a reflection of what was, but a world reflecting the darkness of all things into reality, energy disbursing across the endless vastness of reality, birthing the two headed beast of another mirror, birthing the worlds within worlds, not reflecting the lightness, but a world reflecting the darkness of all things into reality, release, fornicate, see the mirror, see who you are without the hindrance of who you was told to be, be, see, fornicate, release, be free to be the me you was always meant to be!

Passive motions hidden in grander illusions that find themselves masked in the forever of the incessant ramblings of a injured animal, stroked beyond contentment, thrust into (FORCED OUT FROM YOUR PATHETIC HOLE!) the face of forgiveness (REGRETS NOT FORGOTTEN, BUT NEITHER REMEMBERED!) see my smile, know my pleasure as you feel your pain (FEEL MY ECSTASY!) summon that which was not given and face the cry of another wisdom given, tomorrow, next week, next year, forever and a day, she’d no tears for we are (THERE IS ONLY ME NO WE!) all (I AM EVERYTHING, I AM ALL, CLOSE YOUR EYES AND KISS YOURSELF GOODBYE!)..

Blind eyes looking for answer not to be found, tears (RIVERS!) flow free like thunderous rain clouds emptying their payload upon the broken earth, twisted (RED) forms jitter to life, converging (REALITY SHIFTING) into something new, something worse (BEAUTIFUL) than anything we could ever envisage (SEE ME FOR WHO I AM!) fear the coming (SEE ME FOR WHAT I AM!) share the fear of my beginnings (KNOW ME FOR WHAT HAVE DONE) wish for something else, wish for anything, wish for release, because there you will find me…

Providence of a stolen minute given to false musings that reflect an accidental yearning (AN ACCIDENTAL YEARNING!) forcing oneself to repeat a moment again and again, gratifying the selfless ness of the moment with a wickedly soiled ginger thrust sharply between wanting parts, seeping with sin of self, back arched, muscles taut, teeth clenched as the finger digs deeper into the fire that will not lay dormant, resistance is futile (FUTILE!) resistance is an undesirable reaction to a moment on ones own hand…

Rate my sickness as it comes from within, (feed me it call) subject the interior of the venomous pit to a taste of saliva and blood, reflect (remember when I ruled your taste buds, remember when I was the only thing inside) succumb to my call, rejoice in my touch (it YEARNS to be held, it YEARNS to flood you with its gift) succumb to my call, rejoice to my thrusts, (taste the staleness of my salt as I have kept it for you) succumb to my call, rejoice in the infinity of my ecstasy, savour in my completeness, for your time will soon be here, soon the darkness of my forever will swallow you as you swallow me…

Midnight rides towards you like a hurricane of unwanted wishes, subjecting (fornication of a twisted sin within your pale princess legs) your very essence with its silent touch (fingers of slimy darkness caressing your parts uncharted) decades of harrowing tales of mistrust and misguided servitude lost in a single (many times over, single is a wicked word lost in a sea of catastrophic memories wiped from the plate that recalls your every movements) moment of deceptive manipulation, befall a beauty, signal for salvation, but accept (for there is no denying) your hand of pittance and share in the violent ending of first yourself, and then the rest of your pathetic followers call humanity…

Dry reaching from listing to you spit those words from your half-open mouth, listening to your scratchy larynx run itself against the hairs that secrete your throat, whispers of fortitude, simplicity of a man-made hell that whimpers from within the bastard that your birthed from the bowels of your own infertile sack of dismay, (faggot!) savages, words full of hate and remorse, sexual promiscuity questioned for no reason other than to drawn pain from others, a move only made by those of weak ilk ($) servitude, pulsating pathways of blood rushing to fulfilment, resonating those final moments without, within….