As I laid down upon the cavern floor,
I realised that death was with me no more,
a tear was ahead,
my life was saved,
a festive pardon,
a wisdom enslaved,
you saw my lies,
I told you more,
pathetic resolutions.
to simplistic home truths,
we wish for nothing,
we wish for it all,
I gave you nothing,
for you had it all…
Fledgling symphonies,
wrongful acts,
a clash of paint,
a flash of sin.
weird in between everything,
rotting flesh within,
a word asked,
no sound given,
my moments lost,
tangents seen,
a colour difference,
red wiped clean…
Window to nirvana,
give me silence,
I quest for you always,
my fate lost without,
a lustful kiss,
a sinful glance,
forgiveness reward enough,
for the whore in the short skirt,
plagiarism,
succubus,
my fortune red river road,
skinned alive,
dinned alone,
a window open,
a window without a home….
Pretty pictures without a frame,
looking down upon where they came,
a mirror unmoving,
a moment no longer,
capturing the flag and making it stronger,
forget me not,
forget me will,
devilish transformations of a tomorrow we have not,
a Persian Princess,
in love with an Arabian King,
diamonds on her fingers,
semen in her cunt,
salty semantics,
rudimentary equations twisted and lost,
the falcon,
the bird man,
fly away to the sky,
fly away and escape,
for wings we have not…
My personal stigmata,
my self inflicted staples,
holding me in place,
I am the sin,
I created my own pain,
blessed light breaking in,
I watch,
I wait,
seething with something unknown,
weighed down to the depths below,
I see the light in the darkness that surrounds me,
I reach for it through blood and bone,
screaming,
missing,
what am I,
without me…
The story was told,
starry eyes stole,
fortunes of war,
hidden beneath the sands of old,
dare do we see,
a loss is no win,
the glory taken,
the life of the king,
fashion the shive,
open your soul,
the death of destiny,
the rot of the roll…
A haemorrhage,
blisters and pus,
cynical membrane,
polished rust,
we weather the kingdom,
to spoil the spiders,
suffocating the children,
of a tomorrow unseen,
a dance you call for,
a madness of fortunate beings,
ten times in a row,
one whisper to know,
we see the segment,
we see the tickets go,
symbol of sickness,
parts played,
roles sold…
A walnut brown,
twisted frame,
hard bodied surfer,
semen stains shorts,
blisters on the palms of hands.
surgical percussion,
transgender lies,
mythical bathtubs falling from the sky,
wanting wisdom,
while believing lies,
whispered words of intimacy,
an exit turned into an entrance,
friendships lost,
weathered worn,
my eyes darkened,
forgiveness nevermore….
Dollars for the insults,
with pennies for the clowns,
a Wednesday worthy of substance,
a substance unworthy to be found,
hallowed fortress given strength,
a watched kettle on the fritz,
my name dragged through the sand,
a witness gone missing never to be found,
your fondness was a virtue,
but my blade was too quick,
a sea of red,
three feet down,
spoiled flesh,
of a dirt nap lover…
A showdown of the former self,
wisdom lost in the snow of serendipity,
we perfect false realities upon ourselves,
hiding even deeper than before,
a mirror held before you,
a window broken now,
eyes are holes we see through,
our mouths through lies are told,
sin is given like candy,
perfection is the painting,
life is the canvas,
death the brush stroke to be done..
When I was a child,
who knew nothing of the world,
a child of ignorance,
a child without care,
the world moved forward,
and time ticked as well,
life became a masterpiece,
life became a lie,
lost in the ignorance of the child,
who is not to helpless to care,
struggling as an adult,
cracking and faltering,
falling and struggling,
the child I was,
would’ve hated this man,
the child I was,
wouldn’t give a damn,
whispers of stories,
crayons and chalk,
screaming at midnight,
for that’s when my nightmares start…
The door was locked and the room was empty,
the woman says she has made her own hair,
fill the space with what is lost,
whisper in silence for you to see,
because you know that it is blind,
can I think the same,
do you want me to see,
when you are already unable to,
tomorrow is a perfect day,
for I saw it turn into today,
a window before,
a door soon,
we call the errors of our way,
while mistaking our time for relevant..
Within the darkness a deafness starts,
regurgitated from a story past,
told without the real names said,
a deed of dastardliness was performed,
piled upon the old and new,
buried beneath galvanised flesh,
vindictive processes,
flatulent and forty,
feeble and alone,
a mirror masked in indifference,
a lie standing within the truth,
see the mirror and see the lies,
ignore your reflection as you believe in the lies..
Windows to the soul,
a twisted road to the sin of who is hiding within,
all those dreams I had when I was you,
all the images bad and shiny,
blackening my door,
holding me at bay from the world beyond me,
locking my eyes away,
the mirror fades,
the door unlocks,
the sickness of the human body,
we realise how many stories we have told,
when the image before us is not who we are,
ashamed of the vison before me,
who was I meant to be,
who have I become,
would the child in me be happy with who I am today?
Sickness in the lies told,
a ghost of the past,
a mirror of the child I was,
a life lost in those eyes,
I gave you my all,
and then you left me,
you saw me for who I was,
a pale imitation,
a locked doorway without a key,
hide the wickedness,
bury the hope,
a life lived halfway,
a mirror covered by the blanket of the past,
tearing the part of me away,
who do I see,
when I look into those empty eyes?
Day breaks and the sound ends,
the last song plays again,
a morning,
a bird,
hijacking terrorists given cause to fight,
we see a window,
we bury our dead,
wait and watch,
see the flowers grow,
watch them open up and spread themselves over,
the open air,
sedation,
segregation,
watch the waves of madness,
tears of happiness,
fleeting moments,
watch the waves of madness,
segregation,
sedation,
sunlight on the water,
blood on the pavement,
see the flowers growing,
a bird,
a morning,
the last song plays again…
Table lords and whores,
freedom told through liars’ eyes,
ideas given as fact,
forgiveness a lie,
wolves hiding while your children are dying,
the fields of our fathers riddled with betrayal,
an infinity away,
stars in their eyes,
how will you die,
foolish desires,
endings unwritten,
the lasting lamenting,
time healing nothing..
Deluded from a missed opportunity,
dark star lost in the day of obscurity,
a portrait of patriotism soiled in dead flesh,
degrading wisdom,
dying sun,
we are not sharing,
we are not one,
you give yourself,
while i give none,
there is no us,
weathered days,
wintered nights,
lasting longevity in a womb of sin,
forgiven forgotten,
death from within!
Deceptive view points,
misconstrued ways,
my distance is a mystery,
my eyes only look one way,
lopsided arguments,
earth cold and bare,
the reluctance,
the fear,
the thought,
passiveness wasting time,
concentration a lost thought,
we’ll strive,
failure for fortitude,
solid sin,
we crave affection,
the deludes of a scattered soul,
the end..
Picture the blood of a sinner,
see it run free,
a bloodless corpse is found,
a sea of red does it float,
I was not on the rectangle shape before it became less,
I wished I was,
but I never saw it there,
they deviated,
they pretended,
I called your name,
but hearing was long ended,
see the eyes,
watch the jelly spring free,
I was an open book,
that you stopped writing in…